My Journey to Motherhood

May 18, 2009

39+4

Filed under: Birth,Medics,Pregnancy — Serendipity @ 10:28 pm

I know. I’ve done it again, but left it even longer this time. I really am rubbish at this blogging lark.

Up until 35 weeks, I had a regularly normal pregnancy. We didn’t find out what we were having at our 20 week scan. We have chosen rather to have the surprise. I say “WE” it was actually hubby that decided he didn’t want to know. I couldn’t decide if I wanted to know or not.

My BP has been fairly normal all the way through and I’ve had normal pregnancy niggles, such as bad back, needing to go to the loo all the time. I had a scare at 27 weeks where I hadn’t felt baby move, so I had to go to the hospital for a scan. All was fine, but we discovered I had an anterior placenta so that may have been cushioning the kicks if you like.

But apart all was going swimmingly and hubby and I after much consideration (on his part – I already knew it was what I wanted) decided on a water birth at home. It was all planned, but I was putting off buying my birth pool until I got to 36 weeks. Good job too!

I had a bleed at 35 weeks and the consultant at that point decided he didn’t want me to go overdue, even though to this day, even after two more scans, we still don’t know what caused it. Bear in mind up until this point, I wasn’t under consultant led care; it was all midwife led, so this guy knew nothing about my pregnancy. And even though I had a problem free pregnancy until that point they decided they were going to induce me at 39 weeks. When I saw the consultant again, we arranged a compromise that he wouldn’t induce me at 39 weeks, but that I would go back for an examination, and if my cervix was “favourable for induction,” they would do it there and then, if not, they’d leave it for another week, but I wasn’t going to be allowed to go past my due date. Well, when I saw the consultant again, my cervix was still tightly closed and nothing had started happening. So I’m now booked in for induction on Wednesday. I haven’t even had a show yet!

I’ve been really quite emotionally sane throughout this pregnancy, the last few days I’ve just been getting worked up and tearful. And I feel like all the people who told me that I was wrong in planning a homebirth are now all thinking “I told you so!” I know that once little one is here I’ll feel much better. I guess its fear of the unknown more than anything. I’m petrified!

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